Sorrow..

LOnely is what i can use to describe this damn lfe... everyone around me is killing m.. Even the smallest of things are mkng me insane! WHY?? THATS the big fat question ...! This life just in the way it is suppose to be! I feel so useless,worthless and stupid! MY mom always has a problem wid me.. My dad is always supportin my fat ass jerk brother! My brothers dunt even treat me like a sister! How fucked can my life get!? The things that i face everyday kills me second by second.. pretty soon i am gonna die faster then gramama! wah... isnt there someone out there whom i can like realy trust!

The best proof of love is trust! Nobody understands me including me!

Today my day turned out horrible...! I had my inter class games ...we won and got into the finals .. wats is so horrible about that? well...Everyone thought we won by cheating... i mean come on .. its an all girls team.. its fair okay .. doesnt mean if u nver put in guys you will lose... Anyway i cant really be bothered... Tommorow is sports day! well i just gotta try my best:) i will just try my best! I dont believe in luck.. ITs the talent! Big words huh!Anyway i am tired and i want to sleep.:0

THE JOKES OBVIOUSLY ALWAYS ON ME AND IT AINT FUNNY

Tired!

Today i went to practice my 4x400 realy ! It sucked... It was so damn tiring ! Can die.. i cannot run half way .. thats the problem! haiyas... it sucks man.. maybe i should try sprinting! Haha... confirm cannot! but i shall try.. After that i went to play basketball! So fun.. the 3 on 3 was very fun! shane and nabilah play so cute! Kenny and gang kenna trash! woooot.... Later on when i came home i coudlnt slack cause i had english homework! crazy right! That sucked ! BUt i shall suffer now and enjoy later! ... NOw i am just so freakin tired.. i wanna just close my eyes and fall into a deep sleep ... :P

The hardest job that kids face today are learning good manners without seeing any!

Life

I am running out of patience cuase i cant believe what the hell i am hearing.... MY emotions are so deep! She loves him... He loves her... i feel like the cost of their horrible break up! God can only help and save me form this horrible situation.. hOW AM i suppose to patch them back ! I need my dear sista to be happy always! Her smile makes me live on! She has helped me ... Now i dun wanna betray her! arghhh ... Its horrible! Now i am at my couz house and i miss my mommy ... mommys girl you no! CAnnot sleep without my mommy sometimes :p ... shhhh ... haiyas .. wat to do.. MY life is so interesting ... I wonder who god is telling my story too ? I shall be left to wonder and venture through this life that has been given to me!



The fun has just begun but the story continues.!

Results!

I got my results! it was so damn suckish.. though a pass i dint pass with wat a expected!
I feel like screaming to death! I KNOW I COULD DO BETTER! But never mind i wont let
this bring me down.. i will continue succeeding in life and prove that i can do it just like any
other normal student can! I wish had my moms brain! Life is not that perfect i guess!

The fool wonders.. the wise man asks!

Geography... i am really left clueless with this subject ... one minute its hard and the next minute its not! Haiyas... nvm.. Life goes on! Tomorrow is my last paper! :D I am so happy... no more stress .. its just me and myself for one whole month... that includes mua birthday! argh... just a few more weeks! so very happy! Cant belive the days past so fast! But still then .. YAY .. After literature is still results but i can gurantee that not all the results will come out fast!Hopefully my results come out after holidays... but i aint so scared =] Iknow i have worked hard! And i am definetly not gloating.. i am just confident! ^.^

Until my heart opens i saw myself shine... my weakness says that i cant do much ... my scras remind me that the past is real.. compassion is in my natue .. tonight is our last stand*,*

Today seemed awkward... mom dint jump at me.. instead she was so deary to me!! I likey! lol...
wished everyday was like today! yesterday was a blast... de party was so rawkin... though it was for a seven year olds... it was so great! extrmely fun! it brought out the child in me!
The food was so good! it was like i hadnt eaten in years! lol.. anywayz... Tommorow is second last paper... After that it is slack time! No more braggin cause i have done my part to study... NOw its my parents part to let me free! woo hoo!



I got them going crazy you see, head over heels for me , weak in the knees for me boy 'cause you are so damn easy ! ;P

Boreed .! feeling so irritated by the stinkin atmosphere... on de bright sight a game of basketball cheered me up....!!! maths sux..! The question itself are a killer... its unbelivable hard!
Jst wished i had brains that just had all de answers.. imgaine me being the top!
but there was tis one question that came out that i had did... 9 marks ! woohoo! The hope is still strong!


I dun wanna be the girl to have to suffer the silence!

ToO eArLy..

Science... so hard! never mind... still can pass! got the confidence... with a wee bit help of god.. confirm can get good result in science... ! today school end so early come home nothing to do... tomorrow got HMT! must study for that although i dunno wad is cumin out!~ again hopefully can pass... today i dint see him... dunno wad happen to hym... hopefully hysh okay!

You may have broken my heart with Ur selfishness but you will never break me!

as days pass...

Today i finally got over history and english but sadly still got another 5 more subjects to go... studyin my heads out! hopefully i can do better this time a round.. who knows .. miracles can happen! :) Finallly i have some peace in my mind... but the thought is still haunting me...! its okay .. i will get over it and sometime later except the fact but not hym! I am not being cruel towards hym.. i just dont us to suffer ... if only they understood tht .!

Complet loss for words in this state of shock!

Finaly found out...

wah... i finally found out who is that person! But how?? its so damn hard to believe.. maybe he will get over it! he should.. cause its dooms day for me if he does not! They say try him but how can i ... a friend since primary 3... you must be kiddin me.. I don't want that relationship to break a friendship... its crazy if you no what i mean .. haiyas... tomorrow exam and i am still stuck thinking about this... god save me! i cant even concentrate... i am lost.. someone help me cause i am definitely gonna go crazy!

Left speechless by your letters but crazy by you words!!!